I started this blog with the intent of writing daily. So day after day.... I sit here at my computer with many stories to tell that I start and then get mad at myself for my poor writing skills and delete them. Over and over.
I don't think it matters if I write good but still I get distracted about it and can't finish.
But ooooh I have some good stories. Like the time 3 Indians tried to kill me and my husband over a 100 mile stretch of highway on a reservation. Or when I was anorexic and lost all my hair and gall bladder but got into a size 5!!. And then there was the time that I went dancing with friends and accidentally showed my ass to everyone in the place which got me kicked out. I have traveled to Thailand right after the Tsunami and Bungee jumped over a lake 70 meters high. Once when I was a teenager, I had to kill a chicken to put it out of it's misery. My second child was a twin and during the 5th month one baby died and I had to carry him full term to delivery. I had a very scary man stalk me once at a bar and ended up firing a gun into the air that night.
All very interesting parts of my life but when I try to write them down, nothing sounds right so they go in the trash.
So I will just tell you about my boring day today.
Work, lunch, weight watchers meeting, break, work, home, bed.
I know I know.... it's soooo exciting!!!!!
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You definitely have had a lot of stuff happen in your life. It sounds like a very interesting life. It is hard to write it down, but I think you do a great job with it. If you get a chance to see the boring stuff I write about you will find yourself being less and less critical of yourself!
AJ
You're not boring!
I agree with JanetK. You are not boring!!!
I do know what you mean. I first started blogging here only a couple of months ago and at first, I felt a tremendous amount of pressure to have everything sound really nice and concise and article like. After awhile, you kind of get over it and just start blathering on and on...at least, I did. I think you're a great story teller and I really enjoy reading your blog so keep at it!
WOW, my "reply to comments" is working!!!! I guess I have something to write about!!!
LOL
Thanks for your kind words.
You are a wonderful and bright, living human being, just a bit shy and turned inward at a few of our not so grateful times. Those feelings are not uncommon, for those of us that have had really high HI's and really low- LO's..........it is just having bouts of feeling small and sorry- for- myself times. These seem to be common for those of us not-so-common everyday people... the hard to put in words are the insecurity thinking of that-no-one-will-understand-us, but there are many of us out here, I know you don't think so, but put your key words into the search box, with support. Online is many support groups who help those of us stuck in our own heads... but I like the bloggin thing, now
. More One-on-One.
Making new friends is always a great way to feel better. Hope I was helpful, and not bossy or pushy, forgive me if so.
mlani Fr: Hawaii
I appreciate all comments . Thanks.
Those are all good stories. Take them one at a time. And I'll tell you that some of the most intense writing for me is straight forward/meanng minmalism. ie. simple, short, impact staightments. di=ont try to pretty me up.